The Thing About That Is...

You see, It's not that I'm rude, difficult or even mannish. I just have high expectations of what a MAN should be. I've seen the light and been to the mountain top and I refuse to settle with something that's less than what I know is true.I go through a lot...daily. At the end of the day, I want to know, not guess, but KNOW for sure that I can let my guard down and be confident that the man that stands in front of me will be there to catch me should I fall. Without hesitation. Without reservation.

These past couple of years have been full with coulda beens, woulda beens and flat out hell go'damn no's. Too sensitive, too opinionated, too many insecurities (*gag*) and toooooo go'damn sensitive!! Ugh! Let me be the woman in the relationship. Can I be the ball of emotions for a change? Geez...I've just come to realise that one person built this high, great, damn near ethereal image of what a man is and how he should behave when he loves a woman...and no one has been able to come close to his summit.

I love and respect him. Bow before his opinion. Stand back in awe of his cool...his confidence...his...je ne sais quoi. The love is long gone, but the respect that I have for him and the impact he's made on my life reigns supreme over everything. Everyone.